So.....

I want a family.  This conclusion was reached again today.  I want to be a mom.  Something strange came over me the last few days and I just really want baby...Like now.  Like right now I wish I was pregnant.  I wrote a poem about it in art class. 

I want a healthy family with me as the natural mother and a guy as the natural father and a ring and a wedding.  Its not that I'm getting any younger but there are things I think I need to experience in order to feel I've lived a full life.

Having a husband then kids is not on my bucket list but shall be added as of now.  I mean really, I've already been gay.  As much trouble as I have with cramps I just want to know what it feels like to birth a life.  Some women say that don't want kids and never want kids but I do think its in our nature to want to know how it feels to give birth.  What a beautiful gift.  To be fruitful and multiply.  Life is so good when its good.

So when my older brother died he was the last generation on his mom's side of the family.  That's sad.  At least I think so.  No cousins and his aunts are too old to have anymore kids.  It is sad.  Plus I think my dad needs some grandkids.  He's crazy.

Point:  I've got a lot of work to do.